Wasteful

Wasteful is one of my weakness and my favorite thing to do. I used to waste my money to bought things that i knew i'm not need it. I always spending. Spending. And spending.
My mom always give me speech at least 10minutes about my habit. At the same time, she show me my closet. Humpff... Sometimes i hate when my mother do that... Cause She always right.
I knew i have spending a lot of money.. I got a wake up call when i check my bank account, the nominal surprizing me. I think i must do something. I have to save my money. Penny by penny.
One day my father call me. He said I must go to Pacitan to handle his project. Before I go he give me lecture about my habit. He tell about my sisters. They are good in save money. Totally different with me. All I can do is hold my breath until I can fix my bad habit.
When I'm in Pacitan, I think I can fulfill my promise. Not to spend money for useless goods. I always said to my self I have bought usefull goods. Its work. In Pacitan, I can't buy cool cloth, or nice jacket or jeans, or bag or shoe. I can't spending money!
I want to cry...
There no shopping mall, or ITC. There only minimarket and traditional market.
My activity is work and sleep at home. When I'm bored, I used to go to Beach. Or going to Pacitan city. To find entertainment and buy things I need in a week.
I only spend my money for food.
Problem came out when i go to Jogja or go back to Jakarta. When I'm in Jogja to refreshing, I bought bracelet, necklace, pin, and all made from wood. Or I bought dagadu shirts.
Its feel... Fun, happy, and i'm satisfied. And when I'm go back to my lovely city, Jakarta. I spend a big money. I felt that thing is worth it. I bought for my self. I give a gift for my self which have success survive in Pacitan and success to increase my bank account. I think its very worth it.
But one day, I check my bank account because I feel something wrong happen... Eventhough my account increase but not significant. The nominal is not like i'm thinking before. I check all my bill. I tried to remember it.
And than i'm so ashamed...
The fact said I'm still wasteful. I'm still big spender. Humpfff....
Its hard for me when I knew i'm still big spender.
But I have change my habit. Not much but the progress already see. Its proven by my bank account. Increase but not much and i'm happy. :)
Oprah said "I hate spending."
But my dear oprah, its easy to say but so hard to do. But i try.
Yah, I try to change my bad habit. I know I will be a big saver, not a big spender..
Cheers up!